My first blog post from a 3 year hiatus.
i stopped using this blog in 2015, shortly after Amanda and I broke up. The intent was to start completely fresh, since I had also just left for Princeton. This was all in 2015, and it’s March 28th, 2018 right now.
I dont really want to make a detailed post, because im not not as attracted to sharing my thoughts and experiences with everyone, but I DID want to say something, for documentation’s sake.
This past week i’ve been going through my old blog to reflect on how far i’ve come since my early years at SDSU. Needless to say, it’s been a wild ride. I’m not the same person I used to be when I started this blog, and I cant wait to see how far i come in 5 MORE years. Reading on my posts 5 years ago, I had no direction in life and had no idea about what I wanted. My priorities were focused on trying to get laid and smoking a ton of weed with my homies. Im older now so those priorities arent as important anymore, although I guess they’re still there in some form.
I’m at my big boy job now. I’ve only been at Helix for 9 months, but it feels like a home. Even though i was more than prepared for life as a neuro grad student, im content with where im at right now and where im headed. I finally have the means to focus on things that are important to me, which includes thinking creatively and spending my days pondering the most benign experience this universe has to offer: boredom in a life that does not cater to any individual.
I’m so bored, but thats because I worked hard to BE bored. I used to be stressed beyond belief.
i used to be extremely hopeless at 18, even 21. Now at 24, im more confident than i’ve ever been and ready to take on the world. I cant wait to hopefully read this post at 29/30, and see how successful i’ve become.
Man, it’s gonna suck major dick if i end up doing worse